Schitzophrenia

The secret

Of all mother effing secrets

Even though in reality it wasn't a secret at all

What would happen if something came to light after all these years

And it feels like it destroyed everything you ever thought

Or scared you to death

I don't really know what to think

Or how not to be scared

Or even why I am scared

Its not me its happening to

Or ever happened to

I feel freaked out

And I wish I never answered the phone

Because someone I love 

And care about

Told me 

That they have

Schitzophrenia

And I feel like my reaction to this 

Is bad